Overcoming Loss in Namibia

Confronting AIDS in Namibia

foreign-correspondent badge finalA few days ago, when the sun began to set and the temperature dipped below 100 degrees, I decided to take a break from sitting in front of the fan and mustered my energy to step outside for a run. I figured that with the increasingly sedentary lifestyle I was beginning to acquire as a result of the soaring temperatures, a bit of physical activity would probably do me good. Besides, I was already dripping in sweat so profusely, that a run would hardly change anything.

I set off down the sand tracks behind my house and decided to explore the far reaches of the village. I didn’t get far, however, before I heard distant voices yelling “Miss Erika, wait for me! Wait for me!” It was the children from a nearby homestead and they were eager to join me on my afternoon adventure.

I waited for them to catch up to me and heard little Thomas cry, “Run!” as he zoomed past, ready to race. We raced a few times to various trees and homesteads and, when I could see that everyone was tired, we practiced cartwheels and handstands.

Suddenly, a well-spoken little thirteen-year-old boy named Embara, who I had befriended a few days earlier while tossing a frisbee, looked at me and asked, “Can we go visit my father?”

I was a bit taken aback and I didn’t quite know what to say, so I answered “Why not? Where is he?”

Embara pointed toward a nearby homestead.

“Okay, let’s race there,” I said.

The five primary school learners and I sprinted in the direction of the homestead. Yet, before I reached it, I heard Embara shout, “No, Miss! This way!”

I changed courses and followed Embara on a path to the left of the homestead. I was expecting him to lead me to a house but, instead, he directed me straight to a cemetery that I never knew existed.

He walked to his father’s grave and pointed to the tombstone. Embara’s father had died this past summer and left him an orphan.

My heart sank. I was at a loss for words. All I could say was ,”I’m so sorry to hear that.”

The children all led me around the cemetery. They pointed out the graves of their aunts, uncles, grandparents and neighbors. Many of the tombstones contained the surnames of my learners, and I could only guess that they were the names of their deceased parents and relatives.

I don’t know why hearing about the losses that these children had experienced came at such a surprise to me, or why it affected me so deeply. I know that Embara’s experience is not unique. I know full well that many of the children I teach every day are orphans and vulnerable children. I know that nearly half have been raised in child-headed households or by single grandmothers.

Earlier this term, when I was grading papers in the main office building at night, I was made fully aware of the severity of Namibia’s “orphan crisis.” I had walked into the counselor’s office to borrow a pair of scissors and, laying on her desk, I saw a file labeled “OVC register”—a registry of orphans and vulnerable children. Out of curiosity, I flipped through the pages.

What I witnessed hit me like a punch in the face. Perhaps it was putting these experiences to the names and faces of learners I see every day, but it never ceases to break my heart when I find out that yet another one of my learners has experienced the trauma of losing a close family member.

When I scanned the list of my grade 8 students on the register, I saw that over half of them lost at least one parent. Many of them lost both.

I thought back to my own life and to how very little I really know about loss. My brain was swimming for answers and explanations. I was supposed to be the teacher, but I really had no valuable information to impart to my learners. I really do not understand the meaning of loss–at least not to the extent that these children do.

As I stood next to Embara’s father’s grave, I tried to give the children comforting words, but I’m sure I offered little more than an incoherent jumble.

Finally, I was able to string together a sentence and asked, “Can we bring him flowers? Maybe we can find some pretty leaves to decorate the tombstone?”

The children all laughed. Apparently I had made the silly mistake of forgetting that the goats and cows would eat all of the living plants.

The plastic flowers that had been carried away from other tombstones by the wind and by hungry goats would have to do.

We spent the next few minutes in silence, gathering the remnants of plastic flowers that littered the area and positioning them neatly on his father’s grave. Finally, Embara said somberly, “We are having a problem. Too much people die here.”

I nodded. What could I say?

HIV/AIDS is a leading cause of death in Namibia. Yet, common “western” illnesses like cancer, heart disease and diabetes are also taking their toll. Ill health and road deaths have combined to deplete much of the middle-aged population in the country and, as a result, working-aged people are few and far between. It is their children that must somehow rise to the occasion and pull themselves up from the straps of their tattered shoes. They must find the intrinsic motivation to continue their studies and seek out opportunities.

Confronting AIDS in Namibia

Unfortunately, this is something that I am not qualified to teach them. I have never been in their shoes. I don’t really know what they are going through and, as much as I try to convince them that learning to write sentences in the passive voice is an essential skill in their lives, I know that it is not.

I can do my best, but I know that for most children, my words of encouragement will not be enough.

Yet, children like Embara give me hope for the next generation. He is an orphan, raised by distant family members in a corrugated metal shack. But he is bright, motivated and eager to learn. Embara proudly proclaimed that he had finished term two with the second highest marks in his grade 5 class. He is curious and inquisitive and his English rivals that of many of my eighth graders. He might not have people to push him, but he has somehow found that inner drive within himself.

And while I failed to give Embara the encouragement I was hoping to provide during our evening run, I’m pretty sure he somehow inadvertently reciprocated the favor.

I have recently been experiencing one of the low-points in my service—frustrated by the intermittent internet access in the computer lab, the promised funding for my school mural that recently fell through, the chaos of grade 10 exams and end-of-year-itis that I am beginning to see in many of my learners. Embara reminded me that I need to finish strong.

He shed light on the trivial nature of the obstacles standing in the way of my success and once again reminded me to keep looking forward.

I spent all year trying to teach my learners the importance of motivation and overcoming challenges, and yet my learners already know how to win these battles.

While I fumbled and stumbled, trying to muster up an explanation on the importance of staying strong and moving on, I didn’t realize that these were precisely the most important lessons that my learners so effortlessly taught me.

 

Confronting AIDS in Namibia

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    Bob Grinslade
    January 19, 2014
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    Reading your articles are a great pleasure for me.
    I have been to Namibia on three occasions, to different areas, Rundu, Tsumeb and Windhoek. In May, we go to Ondangwa. Our church sends a group there every year. I, like you, am disturbed by the high count of orphans there and wish there was more we could do to impart some comfort to them. Unfortunately, we are only at each destination for a few days and then have to leave. Frustration is too kind a word. One thing I have noticed about children, is they are very resilient and seem to know how to have fun, regardless of any bad situations. Hopefully we can plant some seeds to help them along as they grow. My best wishes to you for your efforts as a teacher. You are due much more credit than you must receive. Take care and stay safe, Bob

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